The past few days, I realized what a complete failure my life's going to be. I just spent the entire day annoyed that I couldn't play GTA Online because it's the only thing that might have been able to make me genuinely happy. Certainly won't be another person with my pathetic personality and even worse appearance. My only hope at a tolerable job is going almost completely untrained into a competitive industry that I'll definitely be outshined in, and the only thing I care about is money, to make up for the rest of my life being so mediocre. And then I hear people telling me to be optimistic, even though in the rare moments I've been dumb enough to try it I've been completely let down with the idea of trust and being positive. The few people I know in real life that do care about me just do it to feel better about themselves. Honestly, the only even kind of good thing about this day is the government shut itself down from its own incompetence so maybe less people will have their bank accounts and e-mails spied on.